I still have to work. Actually, I can skip it but I’m pushing myself instead since I want to make sure the team didn’t mess up tonight. While I’m finding motivation to check on that, here are some things on my mind.
I’m the type of skincare enthusiast that will buy everything new in the market. I have to have the latest K-beauty product or trend. That’s just me. I work hard, I shop hard. But last 2018, it was a challenge for me to do this. After getting married and sharing my finances with my partner, I realized I might have a problem. That’s why I decided to partake in this challenge shared by Rae. It’s called the low buy challenge.
It’s the end of the month! First, the numbers. I started the month at 136.6. I’m ending it at 138.8. Well, this month went well.
I’ve been busy is an understatement. I haven’t really exercised. All I’ve really done is lessen my food intake. The stress at work often catches up to me and during those days…I cheat. I really, really cheat.
I’d cheat and then I’d hate myself for it. The last two weeks have been like that. It has become a vicious cycle and I’m not proud of myself. Last week started off strong, I went to the grocery and bought healthy ingredients and snacks. I even stayed away from the chips aisle – which I casually visit but always end up leaving with a bag or two. It was a proud moment but not all good planned things go smoothly.
Work, work, and work has really been tough. I know I said it was going to take the back seat but my manager is on leave and all the weight of her job is on my shoulders. I honestly thought it was going to be easy, but boy I was wrong. I’ve been trying my best but most days I just cheat and regret.
Do you see it? I only have three home-cooked meals out of nine photos. I did try to make up for it by walking more. According to Takashi in ‘Afterdark’, “Walk slowly; drink lots of water.“
In the weight department, I’m
not proud to say that I have only maintained my weight. I’m still giving myself a pat on the back because despite all the stress, I still haven’t gained a pound. It’s not something to be proud of yet but it’s still a start.
My real problem is getting my grove and confidence back. I think once I have those back, losing weight might be easier. I’m already mid-way through the month and I still have nothing to show for. Help me.