I’ve been playing a lot of Stardew Valley lately. I know it’s an old game but I didn’t know about it until recently. I’m currently on my first autumn and so far I think I’m playing the game well. I select daily goals and just focus on those. I don’t even try to accomplish the quests because I get fixated on my personal goals, lol. I don’t think that’s the right way to play the game but I like it like that.
Similar to how I’m handling this whole pandemic thing. The past month has been tough on me. There was a lot of overthinking involved and getting riled up because of what I saw on social media. I’m reminding myself that I can just focus on myself and what I want to achieve instead of comparing myself to what others expect of me or how others are handling this pandemic.
I recently read an essay from the book “101 Essays That Will Change The Way You Think“. There’s a line that really got to me.
The things you love about others are the things you love about yourself. The things you hate about others are the things you cannot see in yourself.
This line really got to me. I was thinking (and honestly maybe I am just overthinking) that maybe the reason I am getting riled up when I see people so passionate about politics on social media is because I don’t see myself as someone as like that. This is not to say that I don’t care about politics but I show how I care in a different way.
I guess what I’m really trying to say is people look and react to things differently. Sometimes what we feel or how we react about a certain topic, tells more about ourselves than the topic itself. Our reactions show our true self.
Or maybe that’s me just trying to over analyze everything.
I really don’t know where this post is going. I just wanted to share how that line made me think a lot and how fascinating human behavior is. It’s a topic that I want to learn more about ever since I read the book Mindhunter. I sometimes look back at how I reacted to certain situations and say to myself, “it’s possible that I might have hated this person because I was insecure of them” or “I reacted that way because I clearly don’t know what I was talking about and the other person does.” Whether that’s true or false is still undecided. I’ll leave that line here and let you think about it.
I hope May is better for you and me. April made me self-reflect a lot which made me realize I should stop reading books or essays that question my whole existence.