I’ve been busy is an understatement. I haven’t really exercised. All I’ve really done is lessen my food intake. The stress at work often catches up to me and during those days…I cheat. I really, really cheat.
I’d cheat and then I’d hate myself for it. The last two weeks have been like that. It has become a vicious cycle and I’m not proud of myself. Last week started off strong, I went to the grocery and bought healthy ingredients and snacks. I even stayed away from the chips aisle – which I casually visit but always end up leaving with a bag or two. It was a proud moment but not all good planned things go smoothly.
Work, work, and work has really been tough. I know I said it was going to take the back seat but my manager is on leave and all the weight of her job is on my shoulders. I honestly thought it was going to be easy, but boy I was wrong. I’ve been trying my best but most days I just cheat and regret.
Do you see it? I only have three home-cooked meals out of nine photos. I did try to make up for it by walking more. According to Takashi in ‘Afterdark’, “Walk slowly; drink lots of water.“
In the weight department, I’m
not proud to say that I have only maintained my weight. I’m still giving myself a pat on the back because despite all the stress, I still haven’t gained a pound. It’s not something to be proud of yet but it’s still a start.
My real problem is getting my grove and confidence back. I think once I have those back, losing weight might be easier. I’m already mid-way through the month and I still have nothing to show for. Help me.