This morning, I just renewed my WordPress plan. That’s $96 down the drain for a hobby.
I’ve been feeling distant from blogging lately, aside from my weekly cooking diaries, I literally have zero desire to sit down and write. Today is an exception though. For $96 I told myself I have to write a post about what I’m feeling about blogging and about my life lately.
Aside from the usual reasons like: I love writing, blogging is fun, reading about people and their lives is amusing, I really don’t have any reason. I honestly find blogging a chore lately – like I have to sit down, think, conceptualize, take pictures, edit, and proofread when I could do something more productive or useful with that time. I know it’s because of my new set of responsibilities but this feeling has been taking over me a lot and it’s not good.
My old blogging friends are also missing or are not as present as they once were. They rarely post and since I’m not into social media that much, going to another platform just to keep in touch is too much. I also don’t have the energy to make new friends. I’m basically here talking to myself but still wanting some attention.
I also don’t have time. I can make time but doing so would require some sort of sacrifice. I thought moving closer to work would give me more freedom and time but all I’ve been doing is working harder. I’m honestly enjoying work but I’m slowly realizing that maybe it’s at the expense of my life.
I really don’t know why I hit the renew button this morning. I don’t really feel motivated to do this blogging thing but I know deep in my heart I love blogging. I love writing and I love sharing my thoughts, reviews, stories, recipes, and whatnots to random strangers on the internet. I just have to get my groove back.
I will get it back.