If I only had three months left to live, what would I do?

I’d start by having a grateful heart. I’d be thankful to still be alive, even if I have only three months left, I’d make the most of it. I’d start to look at things differently and appreciate it more.

I will start telling people that I love them. Sometimes I forget to say I love you. I tend to overlook saying it because I think that I still have tomorrow. I don’t say it enough because it’s overrated and not cool. I’d tell my parents that I love them and that I appreciate everything they have done for me. I’d tell my sister and brother that I love them and that they have a fruitful and blessed life ahead. I’d tell people I hold grudges against that I love them and wish them the best. I also would like to apologize to people that I may have hurt. Often times I don’t realize that I have already done something that has hurt others because I’m too focused on myself. I let my ego get in the way. It also wouldn’t hurt to hug tighter and love harder. The most important thing in life are the relationships we’ve made. I want to show how much I value it by physically showing it.

I’d also start doing things NOW. That backpacking trip I’ve been postponing for the longest time, book it! Jumping off a cliff? Scuba diving? White water rafting? Let’s go! I need to live right now and that includes experiencing things I’ve always wanted to do. I’ve delayed it for too long.

Would it be weird if I delete my social media ahead of time? That’s something I also want to do. It’s too personal for it to be still on the internet long after I’m gone. I guess alongside its deletion, I also have to sort my life out. I don’t have a lot of money so financially I won’t have a problem but it won’t hurt to officially put it in writing. My material possessions would also have either be shared or donated. It’s never too late to live a minimalist lifestyle and start living only with my essentials.

But more than ever, I want to make sure that I lived a life that was well lived. This includes making memories for myself and others. I would want to be remembered as someone who is respectful and just. A person who others would like to be with regardless if tomorrow is my last day. A good person in her own way.

The good thing is I’m not dying in three months. I have the rest of my life ahead to live a better life.  Questions like this make you wonder what more can you improve in your life. I’m glad I asked myself this. This is my little reflection on what I still want to improve on.

Tell me, if you only had three months left to live, what would you do?


12 thoughts on “If I only had three months left to live, what would I do?”

  1. I honestly have no idea. It’s such a big concept that when I think about it I sort of get paralysed. Going with my gut, I’d probably write a lot, writing things to lave behind for the people I love.

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    1. Your answer reminds me of the movie PS I love you. The whole thing scares me too. I just tried asking that question to see what more I needed/wanted to improve in my life.


  2. Agree with the comment up there — whenever i think about this Q, i always get overwhelmed. Sorting my life out and doing things i’ve always wanted to do are not bad ideas, but i have a feeling that i still won’t be able to do them because the thought of dying will always be on my mind. Maybe i’d spend all the remaining days with people i value — my family, close friends and girlfriend. I won’t go anywhere. Also, i’ll be crying my eyes out everyday for all the things i’d miss.

    This is a good Q to ask, though, because it puts things in perspective. The sad thing is, living like it’s your last — so you don’t have to wait for impending death before doing all those stuff — is not really easy. 😦 How do we make it easy? How do we do it? Let me know if you find the answer. 🙂

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    1. It’s such a scary thought, right? And there’s no real answer because knowing you have limited time will just scare the shit out of you and will just paralyze you from actually doing things!

      I wrote this a year ago and had no idea what was in store for me that year (losing my dad). If there’s anything I’ve learned from my dad’s passing it’s just do everything you want to do today. Live your life without regrets because at the end of the day, we have limited time here.

      I just reposted this cause I want to remind myself and my readers to live and surround yourself with the people you want to be surrounded with! I think there’s all there is to it. 🙂

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  3. I would not wait as we may not be given the opportunity to know in advance when the end will come. Make amends, tell those you love that you love them now, everyday. Remove the negative people in your life from it, now. The movies glorify end of life scenes and bucket lists- often that is not how it plays out, people are too ill to play catch up. Carpe Diem!

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  4. Sabi nga ni Ian (Jeremy Renner) sa Arrival, “Maybe I’d say what I felt more often.”

    Plus I’d probably sign up for a number of life insurance policies so my family could get earn some money off of my death haha.

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  5. I’d quit my job and spend all my life’s savings on making sure my all my insurance payments are up to date to make sure my siblings are secure, then I’d go travel to as many places as I can with my boyfriend in tow. 🙂

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