I’d start by having a grateful heart. I’d be thankful to still be alive, even if I have only three months left, I’d make the most of it. I’d start to look at things differently and appreciate it more.
I will start telling people that I love them. Sometimes I forget to say I love you. I tend to overlook saying it because I think that I still have tomorrow. I don’t say it enough because it’s overrated and not cool. I’d tell my parents that I love them and that I appreciate everything they have done for me. I’d tell my sister and brother that I love them and that they have a fruitful and blessed life ahead. I’d tell people I hold grudges against that I love them and wish them the best. I also would like to apologize to people that I may have hurt. Often times I don’t realize that I have already done something that has hurt others because I’m too focused on myself. I let my ego get in the way. It also wouldn’t hurt to hug tighter and love harder. The most important thing in life are the relationships we’ve made. I want to show how much I value it by physically showing it.
I’d also start doing things NOW. That backpacking trip I’ve been postponing for the longest time, book it! Jumping off a cliff? Scuba diving? White water rafting? Let’s go! I need to live right now and that includes experiencing things I’ve always wanted to do. I’ve delayed it for too long.
Would it be weird if I delete my social media ahead of time? That’s something I also want to do. It’s too personal for it to be still on the internet long after I’m gone. I guess alongside its deletion, I also have to sort my life out. I don’t have a lot of money so financially I won’t have a problem but it won’t hurt to officially put it in writing. My material possessions would also have either be shared or donated. It’s never too late to live a minimalist lifestyle and start living only with my essentials.
But more than ever, I want to make sure that I lived a life that was well lived. This includes making memories for myself and others. I would want to be remembered as someone who is respectful and just. A person who others would like to be with regardless if tomorrow is my last day. A good person in her own way.
The good thing is I’m not dying in three months. I have the rest of my life ahead to live a better life. Questions like this make you wonder what more can you improve in your life. I’m glad I asked myself this. This is my little reflection on what I still want to improve on.
Tell me, if you only had three months left to live, what would you do?