We all have secrets.
This blog is my biggest secret. Only my brother and boyfriend know of its existence but neither of them know it’s exact URL. I hope it stays that way.
I have been thinking a lot about what this blog means to me and why I keep on doing what I do. The top reason is because I want to be a blogger too – like the real famous ones who don’t work and all they do is travel, cook or review. I like the idea that one day I can leave my day job but still have a steady source of income. I think/hope that blogging can do that for me. But honestly, after months and months of writing and blogging, I have discovered that it’s not as easy as it looks. I am still trying to look for who I am as a blogger/writer. Who knew it would be so hard?
I have also come to realize that I don’t want to be a blogger. What I want to become is someone who has a strong sense of opinion on things and someone who can confidently share them in a room/website full of people. I also want to become creative.
I also want to be able to share my thoughts and feelings without anyone judging them (main reason why I’m half anonymous). To be quite honest, I don’t have a friend who I can share my deepest darkest secrets with. I have friends, but not that one person who I can completely be honest with. Oh wait, I think that’s my brother lol. But anyway, my point is sometimes we barely see and talk to each other that I don’t know, sometimes I feel lost.
This blog has helped me focus on things I want to achieve and try. I love that it does that for me. I love that I can be whoever I want to be online but still hold a certain level of anonymity…
I guess all I’m trying to say is that this blog is a secret because it means so much to me. It has been a source of happiness and it also has helped me use my energy and creativity productively. It is a wonderful distraction from what real life has to offer.
I also think if you personally know who I am, I’m not sure if I want to hear that you read my blog. I think.
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This is a free writing activity I challenged myself to. For a total of ten minutes, I wrote down what this blog means to me. It’s really nothing special, I know there might be typographical or grammatical errors but I’ll leave it be. Share your thoughts down below!